My name is connor and I have a set of ethics

wait, no i don't anymore. I need to reestablish my own set of guidelines because living life without boundaries is only fun until you realize you've messed up big time. I need to get back to being the man i want to be. I need to be more like my dad. he always loved me and took care of me even when i screwed up, and i screwed up a lot in highschool.. i feel alone here, even though i'm fairly popular. noone gives a shit about improving themselves as people, they just love being hedonists. 

Generic title about my academic future, or rather my probable lack thereof

Man, I don't even know about any education after this. I'm only in college to make sure i can raise  a family some day and give them a good life. I love learning, but hate doing it in a formal environment. I prefer reading and teaching myself things. I just hope I don't fail any classes this semester. I've been too scared to check my grades the entire semester. I just need help, I really do. I'm drowning.

I have had to overcome so many obstacles since getting here. It's really been crazy how hard it is to stay true to myself in this place. most of my roadblocks are social ones. It's just crazy how there are so many things trying to make me lose my way. I want to transfer out ofhere, i can't do this much longer.